Dangerous attachments (dr. sylvia strange book 1)

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DangerousAttachments

A Dr. Sylvia StrangeNovel

By Sarah Lovett

Copyright © 1995 by Sarah Lovett

First published in the U.S. by Random House/Villard

This book is for my mother, Eleonor Marie

Tompkins Poland, and my father, Joseph Fairfield

Poland,

and for Jacqueline West

and for Timothy Thompson, true friend, best editor

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Special thanks to Theresa Park, Alexandra Greene, and everyone at The Park Literary Group—and to David Rosenthal

CONTENTS

CHAPTER ONE

CHAPTER TWO

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER FOUR

CHAPTER FIVE

CHAPTER SIX

CHAPTER SEVEN

CHAPTER EIGHT

CHAPTER NINE

CHAPTER TEN

CHAPTER ELEVEN

CHAPTER TWELVE

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER SIXTEEN

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

CHAPTER NINETEEN

CHAPTER TWENTY

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

CHAPTER THIRTY

About the Author

CHAPTER ONE

EL CHACAL,THE JACKAL, stood on the second tier of cell block one and stared down at the activity on the floor below. In the common area, four inmates were playing a round of bridge. A fifth inmate sat rigid in front of the TV and whispered to Brooke, a regular onThe Bold and the Beautiful. The jackal sighed; an honest day's labor was rare in this world.

He closed his eyes and silently recited the words of St. Ignatius Loyola. "Teach us, good Lord, to serve Thee . . . to toil and not to seek for rest; to labour and not ask for any reward save that of knowing that we do Thy will."

It was a lesson most of the occupants of CB-1 had not yet learned. And there were other lessons: thou shalt not steal. . . thou shalt not kill.

He turned back to gaze into an open cell. The small square window was already charcoal gray. Each day another two minutes of daylight were lost. It wouldkeep on that way—getting darker and darker—until the winter solstice.

Day and night, just like his own two selves. He'd grown so used to them, he hardly noticed the transformation anymore. Day getting shorter. Night, longer and longer, ready to take its due.

It was the killing that made him split apart in the beginning. Or maybe the split was the reason he had begun to kill.

Thou shalt not kill. Finally, after doing so many bad, hurtful things, he had learned: thou shalt not kill.

Unless you are doing His will.

To labour and not ask for any reward

Save that of knowing that we do Thy will.

The jackal had been offered a task, but had not even considered it, until the Lord intervened. The Lord said, "Accept the task, jackal, and be rewarded."His will be done.

The task was to kill. Not a senseless, selfish kill like some of the men had done, like he himself had done a long time ago. This kill was part of the Lord's divine plan.

On earth as it is in heaven.

The reward was great: it would become the crowning glory of his work for the Lord.

He sighed and gazed down at the sheet of paper he'd been clutching in his right hand. Things had been going so well.

But then, a snafu. Somebody was nosy.

And now, he had twice the work.

One hit had becometwohits.

The second name was written in pencil, faint but legible. His own handwriting. Over and over. Just the way the nuns had taught him to writeBe sure your sin will find you out—on the blackboard one hundred times.

The second name covered the page ninety-seven times. The jackal thought it was an odd name. He took the stub of pencil from his pocket, licked the tip, and smoothed the sheet of paper over the rail. In minute script he added the last three repetitions: Sylvia Strange Sylvia Strange Sylvia Strange.

SYLVIASTRANGE TURNEDfrom the frontage road that ran parallel with the interstate. From this distance, the building ahead looked businesslike, industrial. Closer, it became what it was, a prison with dirt-encrusted windows and gleaming perimeter lights. On her right, a pockmarked state historical sign announced the Penitentiary of New Mexico, founded 1956.

She approached the intersection going forty, swerved to avoid a jackrabbit, and swore as the Volvo slid to a stop over loose gravel. Scrub chamisa, prickly pear cactus, and occasional soda cans dotted the fields on either side of the road. A lone cottonwood towered over the flat desert landscape. In the distance, the Sangre de Cristo Mountains gave off a dull blue gleam under winter sun. South Facility, medium security, was a quarter mile to her right. On her left, a prison service truck idled by the cutoff to the maximum facility. The driver smacked his lips at her, then lit a cigarette.

She accelerated past the sewage treatment facility, past the fire trucks. Ahead, she could see the entrance to the PNM Main Facility surrounded by heavy link fencing and spirals of razor ribbon designed to slash a man to pieces. She approached it with familiar emotional discord, equal parts apprehension and fascination. Today, her thoughts were colored by too little sleep, too much caffeine. Even on the best days, it was impossible to view the Main Facility without thinking about the nation's most brutal prison riot. In 1980, thirty-three inmates had died—some tortured and mutilated—at the hands of other inmates.

The silhouette of a guard was visible in the window of the large beige tower looming over the prison's entryway. Sylvia stopped at the speaker embedded in a concrete post set in the center of the road.

"State your name and business."

"I'm Dr. Strange, here for attorneys Cox and Burnett." Her voice sounded husky, unused. She cleared her throat.

"Park in the lot to your left."

A third of the spaces were filled. She pulled into a slot shaded by a naked cottonwood and facing a trailer with a sign:FAMILY HOSPITALITY CENTER.A few flakes of snow drifted down to settle on bare earth.

Sylvia drew her briefcase from the Volvo and locked the doors. Her gray wool skirt had ridden up her thighs as she drove. She smoothed it down to the low edge of her knees and buttoned her burgundy suit jacket.

As she approached the reception outbuilding, she caught sight of her own reflection on the tempered glass. At thirty-four, she was tall, lithe, and moved with ease thanks to the weekly ballet classes she'd hated as a teenager. She had inherited her father's lean limbs and broad shoulders as well as her mother's large breasts. Thick brunette hair grazed the collar of her jacket; shewore it loose, slightly layered, brushed back from a prominent forehead. Wire-rimmed sunglasses shaded her eyes and intensified the angles and planes of her face. She walked quickly, her heels clacking on the cold asphalt When she entered the building, she was twenty minutes early.

Several correctional officers, stragglers on the morning shift, were clustered in the reception area. The admitting C.O. glanced at Sylvia and immediately refocused. As he slid the sign-in sheet her way, he gave a low whistle. "You a lawyer?"

Sylvia's smile was cool. She was used to male attention, knew how to deal with it, but the rules were different at the pen. She signed her name and noticed her hands were shaky. "Psychologist,'' she said.

He glanced at the sheet. "Strange?" He grinned. "That's strange."

"Yeah, isn't it?" Sylvia smiled back mechanically; since kindergarten, she'd heard every possible pun on her name. Be kind to your local C.O., she thought.

"Doc! Haven't seen you in a few!"

Sylvia recognized the voice before she turned and beamed at a mischievous guard named Leroy. She shook his hand and said, "How's Holly?" Leroy's wife worked as a court clerk at the Santa Fe Judicial Complex.

"Holly's fine, just got promoted," Leroy said.

Sylvia watched him smooth the skin on the ring finger of his left hand. When he gave her a mock salute, she noticed a faint band of white; he'd left the wedding ring at home.

Leroy winked. "You gonna tell us who's crazy in there?"

Sylvia winked back. "Does Holly know you pocket the ring when she's not around?"

Leroy turned bright pink and his buddies hooted. When he regained his composure, he said, "I'll get you for that, Doc."

As Sylvia walked away, she smiled. "I'm counting on it, Leroy."

She felt internal gears shift as she passed through the metal detector, down the short hall, and through the exit. She had crossed into another world.

She waited impatiently in the small concrete anteway while the heavy link gate slid open with a groan of resistance. This was the worst part, the first taste of noman's-land between metal barriers.

A sparrow landed between the diamond-shaped discs of a loop of razor ribbon. The bird chirped before flying off again. Sylvia advanced through the gate and walked toward the doors to Main's lobby. As she glanced up at the two-story fortress, she tried to remember exactly which soot-crusted window was the psych office.

THE ROOM WAStiny, crammed with filing cabinets and two metal desks. Sylvia set her briefcase on the desk nearest the door. A potted plant was suspended from a web of macrame over a heating vent. Wilted leaves shuddered in the forced-air breeze. A list of phone extensions, in case of emergency, was tacked on the wall. Just in case.

She sat, snapped open her briefcase, took out several pencils, and selected the slim accordion file labeledLUCAS SHARP WATSON NMCD#36620. A blue folder contained routine incarceration documents aswell as Watson's main jacket. Date of incarceration: August 28, 1992. County: Bernalillo. Determinate Sentence: 6 years. Crime: voluntary manslaughter. Twenty-one-year-old Lucas Watson had brutally beaten a forty-year-old migrant worker to death in a barroom dispute. Both men had been drunk; they had argued over money. No one had claimed the body of the victim. Watson had served three years of his sentence.

Sylvia wondered what he looked like—no photograph was included in the file—and felt a slight anticipatory edge in her stomach; it was always the same when she met a penitentiary client for the first time. Thank God he wasn't a Death Row inmate; she wasn't up to a terminal case this morning.

The thickest folder was green and included Watson's personal history as well as investigative reports on family members, and statements from employers, even schoolteachers. One fact caught Sylvia's attention: when Watson was six years old, his mother had committed suicide—a .22-caliber bullet through her head.

She skimmed the information and the note Herb Burnett had scribbled on a yellow Post-it. "Dear Sylvia, Glad you can take over for Malcolm. Lucas Watson is up for parole next week. Sorry for the rush job. How about dinner,chez moi?"

The red folder held a psychological assessment by Dr. Malcolm Treisman, Sylvia's senior associate up until the previous summer when he'd been diagnosed with cancer. Malcolm's death, two weeks ago, had been a blow to family, friends, and associates. It had left Sylvia with the feeling she was ghost-walking, only half present among the living. The fact thatMalcolm had also been her lover sharpened her grief.

The dull ache in her temple spread across her forehead. She had just pulled a bottle of Anacin and a notepad from her briefcase when there was a knock and the door opened. Lucas Watson, accompanied by a C.O., stood framed in the doorway. He was about six feet two and wiry. His blond hair was shaved close to the skull; small scabs were visible beneath the stubble. He moved with shoulders slightly hunched—a taut inmate strut—to reach the chair in front of Sylvia's desk. As he sat, he met her gaze. His pupils were light blue, almost cloudy; they reminded her of someone who had suffered snow burn.

"Good morning, Mr. Watson."

"Lucas."

"Lucas." She smiled. "I'm Sylvia Strange." She glanced at the C.O. who had remained in the doorway. "We're okay."

The C.O. fingered his name tag:ANDERSON."If you need me, I'll be outside."

She waited until the door closed before she spoke. "Your lawyer, Mr. Burnett, told me you requested an independent evaluation. Can you tell me why?"

Lucas shifted, hips pressed toward the desk. His tongue slid over his teeth and tiny beads of perspiration were visible on his upper lip. "For the parole board."

"Do you think your caseworker can come up with a feasible plan?" Sylvia asked. Each inmate was assigned a caseworker. When applicable, he or she was responsible for the formulation of a parole plan—the nuts and bolts of parole—including potential living situation, employment, and available treatment programs.

Lucas fixed her with his cloudy eyes and nodded.

"Good. Before we begin, I need to remind you that I can't guarantee confidentiality. Whatever we talk about in this office, I'll be sharing that information with your lawyer and, ultimately, with the parole board."

He nodded again, his body humming with motor tension, fingers drumming the arms of his chair.

Sylvia noted a dark substance under his first and second fingernails. Her guess: dried blood. When he was stressed, Lucas probably scratched the scabs on his scalp.

She said, "Because we only have this one meeting, I want to touch base with you about what's going on in your life. Later, I may ask you to complete some short tests. How did the test go with Dr.DeMaria, by the way?" The Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory, MMPI-2, had been administered by one of the prison psychologists.

Suddenly, Lucas Watson's face darkened with concern. "What did she say about me?"

"Are you worried about what Dr.DeMaria might have said?"

He leaned forward and lowered his voice to a conspiratorial whisper. "She doesn't like me because I know who she really is."

"Who is she, Lucas?"

"One ofthem."He cocked his head, raised one eyebrow as if they shared a secret, and smiled.

The MMPI raw data were in Albuquerque being scored and analyzed by a firm that specialized in the computer calculation of psychological tests. When the results were faxed to Sylvia, she would use the profile and the report as part of her evaluation. But even without the results, she was beginning to get an ideawhere Lucas might show scale elevations. There was an irreverent saying among prison psychs: Two, four, six, eight, who do we incarcerate? On the MMPI those clinical scales measured depression, deviance, paranoia, schizophrenia. Lucas Watson was acting a wee bit paranoid.

For the next hour, the interview confirmed her first impression. He was guarded, hypervigilant, and alert to the most minute power shifts. But to her surprise, he treated her like an ally.

Watson expressed remorse when she asked him about the murder. Perhaps he felt repentant. Or perhaps, she could assume he had certain antisocial personality traits such as narcissism, manipulation, and deception.

When she was silent, it bothered him, and he leaned closer to the desk until Sylvia could smell a faint blend of industrial soap and sweat. "I want to show you who changed my life," he said. He unbuttoned the neck of his prison-issue shirt and worked his way down his sternum. The ceremonial care he took reminded Sylvia of a religious devotee. Slowly, he revealed his chest.

She stared at the tattoo over his heart: an intricate map of blue, red, green. The Virgin floated on a cloud. Red roses crowned her bowed and mantled head. Her hands were clasped in prayer. Her face—dark eyes, aquiline nose, rosebud mouth—was a study in ecstatic joy. The Madonna's ascension.

Sylvia had seen tattoos on inmates. They were part of the uniform, part of the antisocial mask. But this was no prison-issue job.

"Gideon made her."

"Gideon?"

"The artist."

"She's beautiful." As she stared at the tattoo of the Madonna, Sylvia felt Lucas clutch her face with greedy eyes.

He said, "You're like her."

She met his gaze. Light gleamed off the gold cap that covered his left canine. He took her silence for disapproval.

"I didn't mean to offend you." He sank down in the chair and buttoned his shirt.

"I'm not offended." Sylvia's expression remained neutral while she contemplated pieces of the puzzle that was Lucas Watson. Anxiety, fear, guardedness, alliance, devotion, the Madonna . . . She said, "I'm interested in hearing about your mother."

Lucas nodded as if that was the question he'd been waiting for. "I want you to know . . ." his voice dropped to a whisper and he placed his palm on his chest. "This is my mother's face on my heart." His words were laced with hidden meaning, a paranoid's secret language. His eyelids lowered like reptilian hoods, and he refused further comment.

Sylvia let the silence stretch between them. Finally, she said, "I'd like you to do a few drawings." She gave him two sheets of clean white paper, a number two pencil, and asked him to draw a kinetic family—each member in action. On her notepad, she recorded his intense concentration, his excellent visual motor function and pencil dexterity and line flow. Watson labored intently—tip of pencil to mouth then back to paper—and Sylvia's mind wandered for a moment. Since impulse control was a critical issue, she would administer the Bender, and then the Rorschach. Although shewas curious what a complete test battery would reveal, there would not be time for the Thematic Apperception Test or the WAIS-R before the session ended. She heard Watson cough and glanced up in time to notice the twitch near his left eye.

He slid one sheet of paper across the desk. She saw three figures isolated to the sides of the page—one clearly patriarchal and dominant—in triangular relationship.

"My old man," Lucas murmured with an oddly perverse smile.

Sylvia knew that Duke Watson was the state senator for District 9, which included Bernalillo and Sandoval counties. The man had a flamboyant reputation as a progressive politician who managed to keep the Old Boys happy, even with the adverse publicity caused by having one son in the joint Lucas had drawn his father with a violent, predatory mouth; he wielded a phallic cane. The other two figures in the drawing were smaller—a male and a female—but just as bizarre. They were stick figures with egg-shaped heads and detailed facial features. In each case, the eyes, mouth, and ears were overworked and prominent. Paranoid touches. Those were skeletal bodies supporting swollen thoughts.

"My brother, Billy. And Queeny." He pointed to each.

From the files, Sylvia knew Watson's brother had a criminal record; his sister, Queeny was adopted. She said, "In the drawing, what's your brother doing?" She wanted to probe further, to learn more about the relationship between Lucas and his brother and sister.

Lucas didn't answer her question. Instead, he leaned over the desk and peered intently into Sylvia's eyes. "Iread the book you wrote. The one about inmates and their stories."

She had published a single volume two years earlier. It was based on inmate case studies, and it contained some of the most dramatic stories she'd heard from prisoners. Sylvia wasn't surprised he'd brought it up—inmates sometimes did. But why now? She had the strong feeling she'd passed some sort of test She wanted to keep him talking. She said, "I'm flattered."

"Reading your book made me think you know my secrets." Lucas was growing more agitated by the second; his speech was now disjointed. "You know that guy who thought he remembered something wrong from when he was a kid?" Sylvia felt herself drawn into the drama of the moment. She realized she was holding her breath, afraid that the slightest rush of air might break the intimacy.

Instead of words, Lucas offered Sylvia a second drawing. It was a surprisingly accomplished pencil sketch of a woman's face.

Lucas balled up his fists and forced out the words, "My mother—that night, she was in front of the mirror—" He shook his head frantically. "She was so angry—so angry with me—"

He broke off when the alarm on Sylvia's digital watch emitted a high-pitched bleep.

The muscles around his mouth shivered, his hands flew upward involuntarily, and he shot up from the chair. He crumpled the drawing in his fist—"You fucking bitch! You're just like all the rest of them!" he screamed—and slammed it down on the desk.

Blood spattered Sylvia's cheek and hand; the metal edge of the desk had lacerated his wrist. She saw hisface tighten into a mask of rage, and she sucked in her breath preparing to defend herself. Her eyes scanned the door, but the shadow on the other side of the window had disappeared; there was no sign of the C.O.

As Watson propelled himself forward, Sylvia's voice tore loose from her throat. "Lucas!"

He shuddered and backed away. Blood marked a thin trail on the floor.

Sylvia inhaled sharply. "Lucas. Sit down."

His breathing gradually slowed over the next thirty seconds as he regained control. He refocused, seemed to take in the room, and finally, Sylvia.

"I'm sorry," he whispered. He started to offer his hand then drew back in dismay as the blood on his arm registered. He released his fist, exposed the paper he held, and worked the ruined drawing flat against the desk. "Please. . . you've got to help me. They're going to take me out."

"Who?" Sylvia demanded as the door opened, and C.O. Anderson barged in.

Anderson said, "I had to handle a ten-code in the hall. You got a problem here?"

"He cut himself," Sylvia said quickly. Her own pulse was racing, the adrenaline rush had left her drained. "He needs medical attention."

"I'm fine," Watson protested, staying wide of the C.O. as he moved to the door.

Anderson glanced at his blood-soaked arm. "You need stitches." He looked at Sylvia. "Are you done? Can I take him to the nurse?"

"Of course," Sylvia said. She knew she sounded angry; the C.O. gave her a pained look.

When they were gone, the pressure in her head became so intense, she felt sick to her stomach. She stared down at the penciled drawing, torn and stained with blood. Suddenly, the lines came into focus and she realized she was looking at a drawing of her own face.

CHAPTER TWO

THE NOISE LEVELin the gym was deafening: the screech of rubber soles on prefab flooring, explosions of conversation, and the heave of the H-VAC. Inmates—about thirty of them—stood around in tight groups. Most were arranged by color: brown, white, black.

Lucas Watson worked out alone, allowing no one to trespass within striking distance. He had chosen this spot. Without turning his head, he could sense each man's position.

As he pumped iron, he seemed oblivious to the surgical dressing, now blood-soaked, that covered his right wrist. His jaw was rigid, and sweat gleamed off his face as he pumped one hundred and twenty pounds overhead. By the time he had finished the set, his entire body was drenched.

About ten feet away, a beefy Hispanic inmate named Roybal was using the incline press while an Anglo kid spotted for him. Roybal's bald head gleamed and hismuscles bulged, swollen and purple. He said something to the kid, who untied a delicately braided leather band—love necklace and crucifix—from the older man's throat. The kid placed the band on the floor next to the bench. Roybal began his next set.

Across the barnlike room, a two-on-one basketball game was under way, the players yelling at each other in Spanish. Three guards and a worker from Physical Plant Services stood on the sidelines examining a pothole in the gym floor.

A shrill whistle echoed throughout the gym. As Watson stood and lowered the barbell,herface filled his imagination: Sylvia.

He grimaced. The meeting hadn't gone right. He needed to make her understand about the others—that for him getting out was life or death. He knew she was different. She was the only one who could understand; that's why he'd chosen her.

So what had gone wrong? He tried to replay the scene, but the memories would not solidify. He caught only bits and pieces. The sound of her voice. The precise color of her hair and the way it curled into her brown chocolate eyes. The full curve of her breasts beneath the blouse. Just picturing her made him feel better. It would all be over soon. When he was out, he'd take her to dinner, and let her know what she meant to him.

Lucas imagined the restaurant. There would be a red rose against the stark white tablecloth. The waiter would wear a tuxedo, serve rare sirloin steak and baked potato . . . he would have to find out if she preferred champagne or wine.

The whistle sounded again and Roybal and the Anglo kid moved toward the door. Watson kept one eyeon the exiting inmates, the other surreptitiously on the thin braided band that Roybal had left behind on the floor.

Roybal was one of them—a dangerous neighbor from CB-1—and he had to be handled. Lucas had been looking for an opportunity to take care of Roybal. Maybe this was it.

He put the barbell on its mount, then moved casually across the gym floor to the necklace. When he knelt down to tighten his shoelaces, his fist dosed tightly around the crucifix. He felt the cool and satisfying strength of silver and turquoise. Fist to mouth, he quickly bit the crucifix from the band, slid it under his shirt, and found the opening of his leather pouch. With two fingers he tucked the cross away, now a part of his personal collection. Still keeping a distance between himself and the others, Watson was the last inmate to leave the gym. He stepped out into the east yard and harsh sunlight.

The metal door clanged shut behind Lucas, and C.O. Anderson moved deeper into the shadows of the building. Anderson's eyes had contracted to a squint, his mouth drooped open very slightly. He watched Lucas cross the brown stubble field toward Main's cell blocks, and he knew the bitter taste in his mouth must be hate.

THE FEMALEC.O. didn't speak to Lucas Watson as the metal gate rolled open and he entered cell block one. She held her breath until he'd gone—not because he smelled—because something about him made her fear contamination.

None of the men in the block acknowledged his existence as he passed their cells, but he felt their hyena eyes on his skin when he climbed the stairs.

He reached the second tier and looked down over the rail; all eyes veered away. He entered his cell, closed the door, and squatted on his bed.

His fingers caressed Roybal's silver crucifix as he removed it from his pouch. The man lived just two cribs down the row. Lucas knew Roybal would begin to watch him with growing fear. Justifiable fear.

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